liking things is weird... sentences are weird.... lets say "i like cheesecake" does that mean i like every cheesecake... well it depends on how much you like every cheesecake then... in my case i like most cheescake... there are cheescake where crust is too big or not sour enough... its always a lottery in my case... huh.. even the sentence doesnt tell you how much you like cheescake... do you really like cheesacake so you would eat any cheesecake or do you like really like a certain cheesecake so you would eat only that cheesecake... or maybe youre like me and be the combination of both... is it a spectrum? ... is it more complex? then why do people make it so seemingly simple? am i hungry?... im hungry... can you guys tell im hungry?... brb.....imma... food...
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i have a friend (rare instance i know) and we were sharing music and type of music we each other enjoy... and then he suggested me this japanese metal... that i dont really like.... it still good music but it not what i would enjoy normally... but granted it made sense for him... i like "japanese" stuff and i like "metal"... so.. the combination is probably something i wouldve like i guess?... but... no... not really... japanese metal is just different.... the screaming feels different... the vocal feels different... the instrument feels different ... its just not the full blown hard core god blessed hawk screeching american metal... (just if its in english actually my favorite metal band is australian)..
and this is isnt a one or two thing too... my cousin and i went to Japan back in 2024 (i was very lucky (இ﹏இ`｡)) and i said how much i like dango... but... you know... once you had enough dango... you had enough dango... but she still insisted that i was being shy and not buying the dango for every opportunity it was provided... like dude... my stomach had a capacity... is it just me... not being a good communicator... or theres just something we expect about liking things from other people... probably the not being a good communicator stuff... but i bet things like these happened to you too oh dear reader... maybe... i hope... im not a .... math
then maybe i just dont like them enough to say "i like [put object here]" maybe to say you like certain things there is a level of commitment and prove you like certain thing... i guess that makes sense... you need prove... and to show that you like certain thing you have to put effort to it... like buying certain things.. or showing your enthusiasm when you speak it... decorate your room with it... and in by metric you should be at least the 10 percentile of people who claim to like the thing.... r-right?.... righhhtt....??
for the longest time i had this believe that llking things need certain commitment and prove... that if you dont do it or liking the general way of liking things... you dont like it... for example... "i dont like anime anymore" is something that ive said to myself... compare to teenager me who spent a great amount of watching anime and finding most anime to be enjoyable... compare to now... i barely have any interest watching the next isekai or finding frieren to be life changing... even the community isnt the same anymore every convention is now filled with vtubers and gacha games... or the combination of jujutsu kaisen, demon slayer or chainsaw man... i mean theres nothing wrong with those... its just not for me... anymore... and i pretend enough to like those things... but then i felt genuinely sad... that i dont like something that i used to absolutely love .... feeling that maybe this is just a process of growing up... and not liking things like how you used to...
but......... after... a year... and had time to actually think.... i said no... fuck you... (not you dear reader... not at all... it needs to be consensual) fuck them that says you dont like it if a or b.... i like how i like... if i say i like it.. then i like it.... i dont need no damn prove or commitment....... something like that....
i found that i still like anime (kind of) the way my old self liking anime... the fact is anime has changed... the things that i liked overtime changes.... but in the case of anime... shit is there forever... i like my magical girls (not every magical girls but i have my fave) i like those 2010 edge and pre 2000 moe shit... i like them cringy and dumb... i like cohesive OP rather than whipping other studio to make an insane technical and catchy one... and i can still watch them till this day and being a fan of it... shit is still there for me to watch and more that i havent... so fuck you... and it doesnt mean i cant watch modern anime... i watched makeine the other day and girls band cry... its very good... who says i cant like some of the new because i like more of the old one... no one thats who.....
hu-uhm... lets uhh tone it down a bit.... i know this seems obvious for most people... but.. for me who.. never done self reflection before... is huge... because liking things for most people is a very big thing ... and the realization that liking thing is very personal conveluted and weird... is huge to me... and maybe some of you had felt the same or still is... and if its the ladder... say fuck em..... consensually
so thats why liking things is weird... thank you ted talk come... have a nice one
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