*text jumpscare* baaa scared you didnt i... of course i did... heyoo...im back ...well i never actually left... but it certaintly felt like it... it has been 3 weeks and im just wanting to write stuff... because damn it its my blog... i dont have much of a valid excuse nor do i even should have one... i just wanted to update stuff regarding work and what i have been doing for the past 3 weeks...
okay first.. work... its been 2 weeks since i interviewed... i did some practical test regarding front end and i felt like i was doing okay... but it has been 2 weeks and im starting to think that im not getting the job... which sucks... i will try to ask about my status but... after that ill have to Continue finding work...its been a bit rough for my mental state... just a bit... and i think my addiction is getting a bit worse... but thats a problem for another day... but... i will triumph... i still have other backup plans and a bit of mental fuel to still chugging this along until i unluckily fall into a void of despair... but other than that im optimistic... („• ֊ •„)੭ (may not sound like it but i am... i think...)
on other news.... im starting to socialize again... not with new people... strangers are still scawy..... but ive been getting in touch with my old friends... it has been... okay... all of my prior distaste, woe and insecurity isnt present now... and its probably thanks to my medication im in a way better mental state... i can mostly be myself around my friends and not trying to withdraw or trying to overcompensate in front of them... granted i dont communicate with them like how i used to... and definitely way less frequent then how i used to... but i feel like i find this semi comfortable line between myself and my friends... which is nice..
i also have other stuff to do now... like making portofolio for my front end job... and ive been getting into drawing again recently which is greatttt i like drawing uwu... ohh also ive been watching precure these past few weeks and im planning to talk about them in a blog... ive been healthily(?) obssessed with it and im about to finish my third season of precure... i am really excited about wanting to talk about precure because i feel like i found something similiar to how i like magical girls and gundam...
yeah i guess thats it for today... its a short one but i just wanted to get it out there...hope you reader have a wonderful day
chao! ʕ •ɷ•ʔฅ